There's a Stocking Missing

As every adoptive parent knows, waiting can be terrible. I'm reminded of our daughter's absence every day. I thought the last two years of waiting was hard, but it was nothing compared to what I'm feeling now that I've held her and know who she is.

The Christmas season is making it even worse - I think of it as I hang the stockings and there is one missing, as I'm shopping and want to buy her presents, as I'm wanting her to see the lights and feel the magic. I pray she realizes some day how much we are missing her during this holiday season.

Even every day things such as picking up Parker from after school care and letting my eyes drift to the rooms with the younger children make me wish for her even more. Everywhere I go, the first question asked is - when do you go back? Oh, how I wish I knew when the phone would ring and we would know the date we would see her precious face again. I pray it comes soon.

There was an adoption newsletter that had the following song by Jim Brickman. We wish we could be with Reagan to celebrate Christmas, but for now we will send her a little Christmas.

Sending You a Little Christmas (by Jim Brickman)

A photograph, a blanket
Some mistletoe, confetti snow
An angel to put on a tree
Santa Clause in Crayon
To make you smile today
While you're so far away

So I'm sending you a little Christmas
Wrapped up with love
A little peace, a little light
To remind you of
How I'm waiting for you, praying for you
I wanted you to see
So I'm sending you a little Christmas
Till you come home to me

Some gingerbread, a candy cane
A stocking I made with your name
I filled it with your favorite things
A way to say I love you
Like kisses through the air
Hoping you'll feel me there

So I'm sending you a little Christmas
Wrapped up with love
A little peace, a little light
To remind you of
How I'm waiting for you, praying for you
I wanted you to see
So I'm sending you a little Christmas
Till you come home to me

Home, into these arms of mine
Home where you belong

So I'm sending you a little Christmas
Wrapped up with love
A little peace, a little light
To remind you of
How I'm waiting for you, praying for you
I wanted you to see

So I'm sending you a little Christmas
Till you come home

Home, till you come to me
Come home