I Wish You Merry Christmas

OK, here I go with another sad, I'm missing my baby post. I noticed this song on the radio the other day, and now it seems like I hear it every few minutes. It never fails to bring tears to my eyes.


Merry Christmas (by Third Day)

There's a little girl trembling on a cold December morn
Crying for momma's arms
At an orphanage just outside a little China (for us, Russian) town
There the forgotten are

But half a world away I hang the stockings by the fire
And dream about the day when I can finally call you mine

It's Christmas time again but you're not home
Your family is here and yet you're somewhere else alone
And so tonight I pray that God will come and hold you in his arms
And tell you from my heart I wish you Merry Christmas

As I hang the tinsel on the tree and watch the twinkling lights
I'm warmed by the fire's glow
Outside the children tumble in a wonderland of white,
Make angels in the snow

But half a world away you try your best to fight the tears
And hope that heaven's angels come to carry you here

It's Christmas time again but you're not home
Your family is here and yet you're somewhere else alone
And so tonight I pray that God will come and hold you in his arms
And tell you from my heart I wish you Merry Christmas

Christmas is a time to celebrate the holy child
And we celebrate his perfect gift of love
He came to earth to give his life
And prepare a place for us
So we could have a home with him above

It's Christmas time again and now you're home
Your family is here so you will never be alone
So tonight before you go to sleep, I'll hold you in my arms
And I'll tell you from my heart, and I'll tell you from my heart
I wish you Merry Christmas

There's a Stocking Missing

As every adoptive parent knows, waiting can be terrible. I'm reminded of our daughter's absence every day. I thought the last two years of waiting was hard, but it was nothing compared to what I'm feeling now that I've held her and know who she is.

The Christmas season is making it even worse - I think of it as I hang the stockings and there is one missing, as I'm shopping and want to buy her presents, as I'm wanting her to see the lights and feel the magic. I pray she realizes some day how much we are missing her during this holiday season.

Even every day things such as picking up Parker from after school care and letting my eyes drift to the rooms with the younger children make me wish for her even more. Everywhere I go, the first question asked is - when do you go back? Oh, how I wish I knew when the phone would ring and we would know the date we would see her precious face again. I pray it comes soon.

There was an adoption newsletter that had the following song by Jim Brickman. We wish we could be with Reagan to celebrate Christmas, but for now we will send her a little Christmas.

Sending You a Little Christmas (by Jim Brickman)

A photograph, a blanket
Some mistletoe, confetti snow
An angel to put on a tree
Santa Clause in Crayon
To make you smile today
While you're so far away

So I'm sending you a little Christmas
Wrapped up with love
A little peace, a little light
To remind you of
How I'm waiting for you, praying for you
I wanted you to see
So I'm sending you a little Christmas
Till you come home to me

Some gingerbread, a candy cane
A stocking I made with your name
I filled it with your favorite things
A way to say I love you
Like kisses through the air
Hoping you'll feel me there

So I'm sending you a little Christmas
Wrapped up with love
A little peace, a little light
To remind you of
How I'm waiting for you, praying for you
I wanted you to see
So I'm sending you a little Christmas
Till you come home to me

Home, into these arms of mine
Home where you belong

So I'm sending you a little Christmas
Wrapped up with love
A little peace, a little light
To remind you of
How I'm waiting for you, praying for you
I wanted you to see

So I'm sending you a little Christmas
Till you come home

Home, till you come to me
Come home