It Feels Real Now

While I was driving to work this morning, it hit me (and I mean, really hit me) that I would be holding my baby girl soon. Not just in the “yes, I have xx many more days” way. But suddenly, it was so real to me that I could almost feel her in my arms and smell her sweet smell. I feel like I talk about crying in every post (and before this adoption process I really wasn’t a crier!), but again I felt the tears welling up. It seems so real now. After spending so long with just a notional idea of a child and then traveling around the world to actually meet her, it’s just hard for it to feel “real” at times. But now it IS real! She is really coming home!

Songs of My Heart

Throughout the years of infertility and miscarriages, there was one song that I clung to for hope. “He is able, he is able, to do what concerns me today…” Every time we sang it in church, the tears would inevitably come. I claimed it as my own through a very complicated pregnancy followed by the birth of our wonderful son.

When we began our adoption journey, I never imagined the twists and turns it would take. Law changes, region freezes, declined referrals which broke our hearts, and the seemingly never-ending waiting list made this journey to a child different but still very difficult. The song that kept coming to my mind this time was Mighty to Save.


Everyone needs compassion,
Love that's never failing;
Let mercy fall on me.

Everyone needs forgiveness,
The kindness of a Savior;
The Hope of nations.

Savior, He can move the mountains
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.…


The words gave me hope that He would move the mountains and obstacles standing between us and our daughter. Today in church, we sang it again, but this time there were happy tears knowing we will see Reagan again in just 8 days. As we travel back to St. Petersburg, we’ll do it with a song in our hearts.


Shine your light and let the whole world see,
We're singing for the glory of the risen King!

Savior, He can move the mountains
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.

Court Date

Just when we were wondering if the call would ever come, it did! We're leaving on January 30th for our court trip. We can't wait to see Reagan again! More to come later.